I feel really alone right now. I wish I could run. It's not a true wish though because...I could run. Of course, I could. I'm bipolar. I could use it as an excuse for anything and everything. I supposedly really smart since the whole bipolar thing really didn't get going til I was in high school. High school. Even though I have left college twice, and am taking an extra year to graduate...I have had nothing close to the nightmares of my high school career. I haven't had a single case of backlash to my knowledge except in one case and that was an accident in the way I found out. Sharing a computer is a bad idea is all I will say. But back to me wanting to run...it's all superficial reasons. Stupid things that have nothing to do with my health, friends, family. I could just be a psycho. Act like it, get out of school...again. No way. I am staying this time and finishing what I started. I still want to run though and feel a whole lot better than I do right now. I can't even begin to delve into it though. I mean the things in my soul I feel now...they need to stay a part of me. I have to say though...I want to believe in a soul mate...and I want to connect...with people I can see as well as with those I cannot. I mean both sexes because you can never have too many friends. The more you supposedly have, the greater the chance of having a good sized army when the chips are down. Ok, I gotta go or I will be in trouble! Dear God, please watch over my family, my friends, the sick, the afflicted, the grieving, the military, and help for there to be peace on earth. Please help me to be patience and have peace of mind. Thank you for letting me see an old friend. Please forgive me of my sins and thank you for my many blessings.

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